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monthly wrap-up (ish) (9/26)
this month was alright i guess !! i have the memory of a goldfish, and i do basically the same thing every day, so it all becomes kinda a blur
( ꩜ ᯅ ꩜;) but as far as i can remember it was pretty good !!
i finally re-started tennis lessons this month ! ive been doing tennis since i was in elementary, but ive taken a break for a couple years, both from being busy and having no teacher ;-; but this month i finally found one !! the classes are like an HOUR long, which doesnt seem like much, but i lowkirkenly havent exercised for like a year.. oopsies (￣▽￣||) i mean sometimes i learn dance choreographies ?? does that count?? i hope it does.. ANYWAY! yeah by the end i was sweating my BALLS OFF. plus i live in the south, so the temperature is hot enough to roast a turkey i swear. but it was super fun !! apparently ive kept some of my skills hehe ᕙ(`▽´)ᕗ my racket was so old that the handle just peeled off by the end though, which is not good for my hands.. yeesh. but its okay i finally got a new one !!!!
besides that i also started school this month, like i said previously !! even after a month of classes, its still SUCH a bore. i have like hour long lectures about the freakin WATER CYCLE. im in highschool ??? I KNOW WHAT PRECIPITATION IS??? this happened with basically all my classes, but the upside is that this is the first year in my life that i have higher math grades than english grades. i have a 98 in geometry !!!!! im blessed by the angels !!!! the only i guess "hard" stuff is my electives. im taking japanese, and the lessons SUCK. i already know everything they're teaching, but if i didnt i would be utterly confused. they just show a picture and make you guess what the word means? and they do that for grammar and non-tangible stuff too, which makes no sense. and they have a stupid ai that checks if ur pronounciation is good, and it SUCKS. its character by character, so im basically just saying "a" over and over again into my screen until the ai thinks its good enough. and my dad has some weird obsession with catching me speaking japanese, so i have to be like james bonde to whisper "konnichiwa" like its a secret code or something LMAO. the other electives im taking are quite boring as well. im taking interior design, which you THINK would be super fun, but no. i just have to write about different careers in the field ;-; i do like english though, since i adore writing essays !! best part of my day is getting feedback for them ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و
i also figured out how to emulate the psp on my pc !! i WILL be playing all of the otome games ive missed out on.. (≖⩊≖) so far im playing storm lover kai and its AWESOME !!! its like a much calmer tokimeki girls, its wonderful. you get a boyfriend really quickly in this, so its more about your relationship slowly developing over 365 days. all of the lis are awesome too (besides the teachers, yuck) !! im doing toratani rikka's route rn, but i want to do ikari mio's and mikoshiba kyousuke's route too !! side tangent: i DESPISE when the mischeivous, playful li is just straight mean. theres a very fine line between teasing and just bullying someone, and a lot of games miss that. this happened a bit with rikka, and with victor in princess debut as well. this is why i have a hard time playing straight romance games, because i always want the man to GET AWAY FROM HER !!! DIE !!!
anyway !! in november ill be playing in a guitar recital oo ◝(ᵔᗜᵔ)◜ i havent done in a recital in YEARSSS and ive never done one for guitar, so im actually excited ?? im probably going to be playing "book end bossa" by round table ft. nino. i LOVE their in april album, even though its for one of the worst animes ive ever seen in my life. i was thinking of doing malice mizer's "ma cherie" too though hmmm..
ive also been getting my mom more into kpop !! she actually listens to kpop more than me, which is crazy lmao. she says she likes my goat TVXQ! she especially likes their song "mirotic", which is completely understandable *nod nod*. im also seriously jealous of 2000's jaejoong. how do i look like that. please. she also likes shinee too, so peak ✌😭 bowlcut taemin you will never be forgotten.. i also need to figure out how to look like sherlock era taemin. his hair was so luscious omg.
media wise and stuff hmm.. im watching this show called art detectives and its really really good !! i had to get a subscription to something called acorntv though, which is just embarassing for both me and the company. the show is about this detective (duh) and his partner solving heritage related crime, from stuff like paintings to music to titanic memorabilia! ive been on a murder mystery media spree since i stopped watching psych.. i have such a love hate relationship with that stupid show urgh. anyway my only gripe with art detectives is the random romance. i never understand romance in mystery shows. why are you guys kissing ?? THERES A DEAD BODY RIGHT THERE???? plus it always just seems unprompted and forced. if you want boring crappy straight romance go watch love island instead. dont ruin my goats. (although.. i dont mind a sherliam or narumitsu kinda romance in mystery.. maybe because they focus on the mystery and make the romance lowkey/implied?)
and for today's episode of star giving away too many personal details about themselves.. bookshelf tour (sorta) !! i redecorated my shelves a bit, and its looking pretty cute !! ദ്ദി ( ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ ) im just gonna show a couple for now~!
ta-da !! i seriously need to get a better camera wow this iphone one sucks !!! anyway thats all for now !! i need to figure out some sorta way to jump between entries since scrolling is just annoying. but thats later me's problem (‘’❛ - „)ᕗ
school starts once more (9/10)
school has finally started !! its.. literally nothing. im finally in the 'important' hs grades yet now im doing less work than elementary. most of my assignments are LITERALLY stuff i learned in elementary too. I KNOW WHO COLUMBUS IS. im at least suprised that this school has done the bare minimum and mentioned that he was a bad person for once. thats america for you haha. i have basically nothing to do all day and its incredibly boring !!!!! im in the teenage years ive wanted for SO LONG and it is NOTHING like shoujo manga omg when am i breaking a super expensive vase ?? when do i become a land god?? when do i meet my first love who acts different now?? maybe not the first one since i hate all the men in ohschc.. you get the point
so since i have so much free time on my hands ive been working on my hobbies a lot, which is really nice. lately ive been getting back into reading, thanks to binge watching all of lexi's (@newlynova on yt) vids. i adore her speaking pace shes such great background noise. and all of her recs are INCREDIBLE. i picked up "the tainted cup" thanks to her and it was awesome !! its a biopunk fantasy whodunnit, with elements of natural and body horror. now that im done with that, i picked up "kokoro" by natsume soseki. ive heard a lot of great things about him and so far its really really good !! its about a young man and a dying older man he cherishes called "sensei", who slowly reveals to him his tragic past. alongside it i picked up "stoner" and "house of leaves" with the latter being especially interesting. its an ergodic book, which means that the reader has to use "nontrivial effort" to understand the novel. in this case, house of leaves is a book inside a book inside a book, and has tons of "convoluted page layouts", such as only a few lines of text per page, music notes, upside-down paragraphs, etc. this is SO up my alley im so excited to read. it reminds me a bit of uketsu's strange series, which has this huge mystery that unravels through creepy house/picture layouts. i enjoyed that one so much that the minute i finished the first one, i picked up the second and finished it that day. i coudnt sleep at night because i was so scared it was AWESOME.
ive also been playing a lot of video games recently. i figured out how to emulate the ps2 on pc and its changed my life wow i love emulation + piracy !! i decided to stick to just two games to keep it simple, and i chose bully and hitman: blood money. i went into both knowing nothing, which totally enhanced the experience omg. bully is such an odd game to me, and im not quite sure what the point is. you play as a kid named jimmy in the toughest school in america, and i guess try to be at the top of the food chain ? you're supposed to be a good guy and stand up for the nerds, but then turn around and beat up the homeless..? maybe it gets better i have no idea. hitman: blood money is awesome though it also makes no sense. it has quite frankly the worst tutorial in my life, but its super fun! it just sucks that when you die you have to go ALL THE WAY TO THE START.
ive been slacking off on watching tv n movies though. i started dead poets society like a week ago and im only halfway through :0 its incredible i just want to take it slow (red velvet ref !!!). ive also been watching house as background noise - wow its a lot gayer than i thought LMAO. idk why i chose to watch it while eating though since its pretty gross haha. OH and im also watching "popular serizawa acts weird around me" which is ADORABLE im cringing every five seconds. suzuki is so me omg when do i get my cringy high school BL?? URGHHH its so cute it sucks that it only comes out once a week ;-; LET ME BINGE !!!
ive really enjoyed dressing up lately too. normally i wear really ugly baggy t-shirts made for middle-aged divorced dads, but every now and then cute girly clothes are nice. if i didnt have such insane sensory issues i would've loved to dress like a style savvy character every day urgh. anyway since i have short hair reminsicent of a dying victorian boy, i LOVE wigs. thank you to the baddies on xiaohongshu your 15 dollar wigs changed my life. i really recommend miao miao island wigs, they're so cheap but so gorgeous and well-made. alongside that, i really like this jirai clothing brand called "no genki". im not the biggestt jirai fan, but this place is COOKING. their leisure/athletic wear are my favorite clothes ever omg. heres a really bad pic of me in both (peep shima on my phone case :p).
this is honestly great exposure therapy im terrified of ever showing anything about myself on the internet (no thanks to my mom's love of true crime documentaries..), but a) almost everyone here is awesome, and b) the background of this image looks like the backrooms so good luck finding me LMAO. anyway i think thats all for now! i hope this new longer blog format is okay.. i thought the old one was a bit too bland. im really obsessed with tumblr girlblogs, so i thought id make my own (besides the always being a girl part..)
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